Ever since I have recovered from my eating disorder, I have been afraid to get back into working out. The main reason that I used to workout to lose weight. As a way to stop throwing up what I ate after my mom found out what I was doing, I would try to purge through working out an excessive amount. I didn’t want to go back to that after all the progress I had already made.
I have been gone a while from here. I don’t know if anyone remembers but I was diagnosed as bulimic with anorexic tendencies about 3-4 years ago I think. It was too long ago for me to remember. At the time I was diagnosed, I already had been throwing up and starving myself for a few years. I was 19 when I started and I didn’t get to a place where I felt recovered until lockdown happened in the U.S. I was 30 years old at the time.
At the start of this year, I started getting back into working out. I wasn’t feeling confident in my healthier body. I was also tired most of the time, lazy and had a hard time wanting to do anything. Feeling this way got me thinking that I needed to start working out to feel better and don’t focus on weight loss.
I have discovered that there are so many more benefits to working out that don’t include weight loss. Below are a list of how working out has helped me.
Most people workout to lose weight or shape their body a certain way. This is because most people associate exercise with weight loss and toning. When I started working out, this wasn’t my goal. I wanted to feel better about my newer healthier body.
By working out, I have found the confidence I lost with weight gain and keeping food down. When I go out, I don’t worry as much about how I look or how my body is shaped in what I am wearing. I feel like my body is the exact way it is supposed to be.
I don’t worry about how others see me or what they think of me as much. The negative thoughts are still there but they aren’t as loud as they used to be.
When I first started working out, I was exhausted 2 hours later. I could barely make it through work without almost falling asleep. The only good thing from this was I was able to fall asleep quickly when I went to bed.
I was confused when this was happening to me. Working out was supposed to give you energy and help you wake up. It wasn’t supposed to make you exhausted and wanting to spend the day sleeping. When I read about working out making you sleepy, I couldn’t find anything. Everything still said it gave you energy.
After a couple months of working out in the morning, I finally understood how it gave you energy. I was starting to feel more awake as a got ready for work and I was able to make it through work with more energy. It also made me more of a morning person. I am now able to wake up before 5am to do my workouts because I know I will feel more awake once I’m done.
Relief From Anxiety
I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety a few times throughout my life. I was on and off different medications that didn’t work or didn’t make me feel right. Often times, I wouldn’t take my medication or stop picking up my prescription because I felt better not taking it.
Since I started working out, I felt like I am better able to handle my anxiety. The endorphin rush I get lowers the amount of anxiety I get throughout the day. Small things don’t cause me as much worry.
Working out isn’t a cure for my anxiety. There are still moments where it affects my daily life but it isn’t as often as it used to be.
Do you workout? How has it benefited your life?